Thursday, October 25, 2007

My Miscarriage

Most of you know that I am pregnant. And because of that I wanted to put this on my blog for everyone (mostly so I dont have to say it a million times).

I went in for my first ultrasound yesterday and the baby measured 9 weeks. The baby looked great except for the fact that there was no heartbeat and no bloodflow in the umbilical cord. The doctor said that the heart had to have just stoped beating for me to measure as big as I did and that after a baby passes the tissues swell a bit (accounts for the extra week in size). So, tomorrow (hopefully) I will go in for a DNC.

The biggest thing is that I dont want any of you to feel sad for me. God has been so good to me to bless me with a beautiful daughter. I feel certain that He will bless me again. Also, I have no clue what He is keeping me or my unborn from. I would hate to have to watch my child suffer a lifetime of a disability. I am thankful that I lost the baby so early on and dont have to go through this after an entire pregnancy. On top of all of that, when I do try to have a baby again I will be tenured and have my masters - SHEW! So no more classes and I can take a year off with my baby! We will also be settled in our new house and I dont have to worry about the dust and paint fumes! So I can totally see God at work and am grateful that he is allowing me to go through this now -instead of later!

One little way that God was preparing me for this: I called about a mothers day out program for Kaylen last week and as the lady was telling me about the program she had to call me back because her doctor's office calling and she needed to schedule a DNC because she had just miscarried. (Why she told me all of that - I dont know!) But then she called me back and she had such a peace about the whole thing and it was so encouraging to hear her speak. I know that God put her in my life last week to prepare me for this week. I am very blessed to be so loved and cared for.

I also have amazing friends and family - all of you. Thank you for being such a wonderful support system for me! I am truly thankful for each and every one of you. If you think about it, please say a prayer for me tomorrow as I go in for my DNC - I am a little scared because I have no idea what it will be like. I dont think it will be bad... it is just the unknown. Anyway, I love you all and hope that you have a wonderful weekend!


Anonymous said...

This shows how out of touch we are! I didn't know you were pregnant, and so sorry for your loss, but after reading your story, it sounds like the Lord was at work.

Amber R.

Heather Lee said...

I am thinking of you and will be praying for you tomorrow...It is encouraging to read how you are looking at all the positives in such a trying situation. I am sure you will use your experience to help someone else who may go through the same thing:)

Angela/SciFiChick said...

I'm so sorry.
I love you and will be praying for you just the same.

Amy Davis said...

Dawn, I am so so sorry! Joe and I will be praying for you and Allen. I pray for a peace that surpasses all understanding to saturate your family and home. Let us know if there is ANYTHING we can do for you. If you guys need a date night, we will babysit. Just let us know.

Courtnay M said...

Dawn, I hate to hear this news. I have and will continue to pray for you and Alan through this difficult time.
God is in control

Anonymous said...

You are not alone. Your neighbors are praying for you, and we know what you're going through. It's a tragic loss, but I'm so happy you've found the positivies in a terrible situation. Erin

Lindsey said...

I'm praying for you today. I'm so thankful God has given you a peaceful spirit to deal with this and will pray that he continues to guard your heart. Give Kaylen a big hug :)

Jesse, Jess, & Corban said...

Hey babe- wow. I just read this today so your DNC is over. I hope it went okay and you are feeling okay. Wish I lived closer- praise the Lord for everything you mentioned- you are so right!! Keep thinking on those things when you feel down- you are an amazing friend!! Love ya:)

Jodi said...

I'm so sorry I didn't know about this sooner - I haven't been near a computer since the last time we talked (like three days ago)! Call me anytime, or I'll catch you next week!
Love ya!!!